So lets be honest, if you’re greiving losing someone the special days sucks. Birthdays, anniversaries, holidays. After my sister left home and dropped contact I didn’t want to celebrate my birthday. THAT IS TOTALLY NORMAL! Do not let anyone tell you to suck it up. ALLOW YOURSELF YOUR FEELINGS!

So today was Ronald’s 23rd birthday. Ouch, the first “thing” since he left. Now, I have no desire to be with him anymore, but I understand covenant, and I’m sad we broke that. I’m sad Ron has turned into someone that I used to know. When I made my vows, I looked forward to days like today! I was stoked to have birthdays and anniversaries and holidays. But Ron made his choices. Just like if you have lost someone, they chose to leave or it was their time to go. Today I decided to make the choice to be BETTER. That’s what I pray for you!! Chose to rise above and define your circumstances, don’t let them define you!

On his birthday I wish him well, and I pray he finds God again. I pray my heart forgives him. and I pray God forgives him. Happy birthday, Ron. I don’t know you anymore, but I wish you the best.

My heart is heavy for anyone going through a tough time right now. You’re not alone.

be blessed ❤

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